gladly survived the 5 working days. Perphaps because i got something to forward to every evening after work. friday was e slackiest. had a meeting w at 4pm & logged out 5 to wandered ard..did some call back.. hahaz seems like working fer only half day. but lucky me, cos e night b4, i only slept at 1 plus. after some salsa at jitter, watched click w june on a fri night. i like adam sandler!! nice plot, reminding pple how meaningless life can be by skipping phases. i guez all experiences help pple to grow & be enriched. but e theatre was a lit cold. met ly & beckii at chinatown fer lunch (tian ji porridge, yum yum!!) & headed to HSA. there were bruises diz time rd. yucks. & had my heart rate measured again, rised by 8 bpm compared to 2 mths ago. getting more & more unhealthy. while ly headed for her party, beckii & i went town fer some shopping & haircut!!! hahaz i wanted a trim so badly. went ova to klearcut diz time. was talked into a scalp treatment as well. cos it was quite cheap ($20). had a very cooling sensation. e feeling was juz like havin 5 air cons blowing on ya scalp. & i love head & neck massage!! hahaz i actually dozed off for a while. after wch, beckii & i went to food republic before heading down to mos to meet june & frenz. felt really tired den. smoove was as packed as ever. e drinks was diluted. went to stroll ard clarke quay instead & left at ard 1am after havin mac as supper. had a short sun tan session w sheena juz now...

union, bbq, mahjongs, gossips, shopping!! hahaz conventional yet relaxing for my weekends.. hy is really my ke xing in mj man.. kept losing..muz hone my mj skills!! bbq was alright, not as exciting as last time. Perhaps all of us had grown up. Conversations were revolving around colleagues, work, bosses & bfz. There were moments of silence when everyone just dazed into space. i guez all of us r rather tired after a busy week at work. e bbq food was quite dry & tough... back to union last thurs was good.. alcohol is a muz to hav a good night rest for me! still unable to adapt to e morn shift.. some pple juz exist to ruin your life & tt was e last straw.. Into my 6th month of work.. boo

It is one of those days tt time flew past w/o any warning. Did not stop talking from morn til evening & 30mins lunch seems more than enough. i couldnt stop talking, stop worrying or stop thinking. i guez i m tt kind of person where work is w me 24/7. Therefore, it betta not be miserable. my mind is so clogged up. a trip to civil service club was entertaining. i like being near the water, even chlorinated water. Flowing water w full moon is even better. Somehow, it always soothes my soul. A ppt presentation brought us back to more than 20 years ago. dey had really came a long way, even longer than zouk. well, i still find it hard to mingle. not good w pple i guez. sigh. went ard to explore the facilities. got excited by the sound of the fireworks & tried to find e highest part of the building.. took a cab down to geylang w/o telling uncle e lorong after hanging ard fer an hr or so. lolz. lucky, he was patient but had a few detours.. finally got to e mongkok tim sum after a mega jam. *muz rem itz L8* stuffed ourselves w more yummy food fer an hr before strolling back to my house through the red-light district.. suddenly, i miss e prawn salad at Hong Xing.. my human-detector is spoilt permanently (quote from June:proximity idiot) lolz..i cant even tell tt someone is juz like an inch away from me.. kidnapping me will be as easy as killing an ant.. updated myself w some enews at half past 12.. yawnz

Are you a dirt or a gem? Does that depend on how you treat yourself or how others see you? You may be a precious gem in someone's eyes but a detestable dirt in another. Its a perception, depending on which side/angle of you someone sees. Embrace the imperpection(s) cos that's what make one unique & different. It is not difficult to lose individuality in the corporate world. I'm still a wilful child at heart, still idealistic, still hopeful, still holding on.. but learning to balance with realism by altering my attitude.. cos itz my responsibility on those within control.. those internally...

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I'm so glad that i'm reverting back to the normal office hour though the thought of waking up in the morn & squeezing in e crowded bus is a torture. It will be healthier, mentally & physically. Excited to be back to salsa & immerse myself in the rhythm & passion. I'm so tired of taking care of irresponsible people, so sick of listening to whines, vulgarities, scoldings & complaints yet unable to rebutt back in my own capacity.. I tried turning on a deaf ear but I can't, in case i miss any "important" word.. I'm also so irritated/angry with myself by the fact that i keep complaining to my dear friends who had been there listening & trying their very best to help me in one way or another. I tried to curb myself from grumbling about worklife & being nostalgic. Having good memory can be quite troublesome. After being on e job, every night, i would pray that tmr will be a better day or at least smooth sailing. I din actually realized that my body was going on a hunger strike against diz work by losing appetite for almost a week. Food had always been a source of happiness/joy to me. I so wish that last month was the darkest period of my life. *pray* but i really doubt so...

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a slack day w some workout, some couch potato-ing, some reading & some interactions did good to my soul..*smile*