In the Hive.

There is a space and a negative feeling/thinking embedded within for the longest time. I tried getting rid of it and pushing it to the back of my mind by developing new memories. It could always be temporary done, leaving bits behind. Accumulated through time, it led me to nothingness. I kept thinking and looked inside. It might be a psychological issue I thought. Rationalization became my way of defense. The unacceptable emotions or inconsistent behaviors were easily justified internally. In this way, it hid the absolute truth and presented a self-acceptable view for others. I am guilty of building reasons to explain things I couldn't have or emotions I thought I shouldn't have in the first place. Repressing the factual moments but still continuously influencing the behaviors unconsciously. The intentional lost of memory only worsens the situation... Enough of my nonsensical monday night blabbers. Time for bed.. yawnz
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Reminder: "Live life like there's no tomorrow. Love like there's no pain."